i wrote this to someone important in my life, and every time i feel like i made such a big mistake i read this to remind me. i guess i need to talk to the "ME" from that time because i sometimes forget and it helps to be reminded

this is going to be hard to say but since the
best way to go about things when you're hurt and
affected is to say your truth fully and without
malice...let's give it a try.

more than tampo ang nararamdaman ko is hurt...i
never fully realised how much it would pain a
person to be the brunt of judgment til..you're at the
receiving end. i had to step back and to remind myself
that you have your own reasons and right to your
own opinions.

i'm on the road to accepting your views and
blessing them for i do not know to what end they
are for, i know they are were made in view of
your best interests.

i guess totoo na the people closest and most
important to you will be those who will be
reluctant to see you undergo (drastic) change. i
understand.

people see you in a certain manner and
form...there is a time when all that fits and
then you outgrow that because that's how things
are- we change continuously. minsan for all the
right reason we 'fight' against that mold kasi it
no longer 'fits' us, hindi na yun yung perfect
expression of who we are...i know too (because i
feel so) na coping with all the changes i am
undergoing is hard...aside from the fact that you
do not see me often yung mga pagbabago eh
kakaiba.

for what its worth i had fun..spiritually-it was
liberating. was it the right choice? yes. why? it
felt right, i knew it was right. remember when i
decribed to u what i felt and saw everytime i do
a reading...that's how i felt and that's what i
saw.

i refuse to explain and justify...not to you
in particular but to evrybody in general. funny
how we always demand that happiness be
justified...when it just is. besides when you try
to justify parang you're smearing a wonderful
snapshot of your life and evrylittle bit of life
is wonderful.

as i said i understand although i know it will
take a little getting used to on my part to
accept and i may never come to agree with you but
i will never discount nor condemn.

if you feel that way then let it be - no bruises.